In my arms and sight

As I sit here thinking I'm haunted by the memory of who I once was
So many emotions all bottled up  I'm to broken to trust
My smile has faded and my heart it's gone to
I know if I go searching I will only find you
My nights are longer but my days rush bye 
And sometimes I wonder if I will be missed when I die
I cry really easy now but my bottled emotions seem to care
I can't see forever like I did when you were there
The sunsets aren't beautiful just a warning of another sleepless night
And the sunrise I will face is just a reminder of when I had you in my arms and in my sight
So many mental funerals I have given you each different then before
But still I find no comfort I can't do this anymore
Your not coming back I know that it's done
My heart lies bleeding calling but you never come
So I shall live my life in darkness because I have lost my only light 
I will long for the days forever when I had you in my arms and in my sight