"It" always WINS

 No one knows the feeling I get when I'm alone ready to explode.  Not because I am mad or sad but a little bit of both.  The feeling that completely sets you off the edge ready to jump.  To feel the icy water touch your skin, a breath of fresh air but with the hint of fear.  Cascading with water and fire but interact with one another. It's ongoing action playing into your life taking day by day to understand why you can't step foot outside your steps.  Why you can't shop for food or go out with your friends because the devil and angel will follow you there telling you "go have fun but not too much fun" .  Being in a room alone sets fire to rain. Never putting out each other just battling for one to take over you.  Until both lose and decide  that each will do it's own job destroying you.  Day by day.  Hour after hour.  Alone versus not alone. IT WILL ALWAYS WIN.