Poem -

It Is You....

It Is You....

I have pain in my life
that won’t go away.
I don’t sleep at night
and cry during the day.
No hours  of talking
can ease what I feel.
I just keep pretending
this hurt isn’t real.
I can’t take a tablet to
 make it feel good,
I think of it always
yet know that I should,
try hard to forget
why I feel as I do,
but that never happens
My pain…it is you.

When someone you love
and have loved all her days.
Decided she wanted to
go separate ways.
Yet no words were spoken
to tell me quite why,
she left all her family
without a goodbye.
She moves round the country
and follows her man.
she left her four  children
to fend best they can.

For three years to date
she has not tried to say
a single word to them
Ignored their  birthdays.
The youngest was just 6 years old
and now nine,
he acts like a normal kid,
says that he’s fine.
But I’ve seen him cry
At times when he’ll see,
a photo of her
stirs his young memory.
Her kids will be fine
I will fill them with love
but I can’t lose their memories
of times they  think of.
When she used to hug them
 and kiss them good night,
and tell them that everything
would be all right,
they  know now  she lied  
it’s her man she loves now,
and they are her  past
she’s forgotten somehow..
When a mum walks away
from the lives of her babes,
I hope that she’s found
 Just the life that she craves.
These young kids have lost her
What else can I do?
Their pain we all share
And that pain ….it is you.

 

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StevieC

I have seen how hard this has been for you and the kids..I hope it helps putting it in print. You do a great job with them and their Dad  but she has been brainwashed by the guy and made to see her life as something that it never was..she has been made to forget the love people had for her which is why he has alienated her from everyone who ever loved her, parents, grandparents, siblings, nephews and her own kids.. she totally now has only him and thats how he intends it...I know how sad you are but know also how great you have been for everyone despite your own heartbreak. Love you Lodi xxx

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Johnny Walker

This truly Is a heart felt poem written with so much feeling Oh so sad but beautifully written 

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lodigiana

Thank you Johnny..yes it's a sad but true story..Thank you so much for reading and your kind words.  Lodigiana xx

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A Lonely Journey

Oh Lodi, 
How sad! Beautifully told, though, and I hope getting the pain out gives you some comfort. You're a wonderful person, and your grankids(including this adopted one) are so lucky to have you!! Sorry for your pain. 
Love, 
Matthew. 

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lodigiana

Thanks so much my honorary, yes it does feel a little better to talk about it. I did write a poem a while back which explains in detail what has happened to her ..it's called 'Gaslighting..means control' but life still has to go on and being on Cosmo is a great distraction plus of course all the wonderful people on here ..just like  my lovely!   Grammy xxxx

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A Lonely Journey

Thank you, Grammy! You're so sweet, and I so agree, I've met some truly wonderful people on here(one being you!), that really encourage you and make you feel good about yourself. 
I'm truly honored to be your honorary! 
Love, 
Matthew. 

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Oh Lodigiana...I am so sorry for such a painful situation for all involved.  I cannot imagine any reason to EVER abandon my children so this scenario breaks my heart.  I think that sometimes people are motivated by selfish expectations in life and do not even think of the repercussions to others by their choices.  I really feel for these children. The pain they try to hide and yet it affects their emotional security.  I am so sorry to hear this...I will pray for all involved...Including you...Thank you for sharing such a personal tragedy. xo  Love n Hugs,   

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lodigiana

It is a sorry situation  and as I said to Matthew, I explained what had happened to her in my poem 'Gaslighting Means control' .One never imagines, when we are bring up our much loved children, that one day they can be changed to the degree that they no longer recognise real love..It's as if a child has died ..and yet they haven't..really tough but  that's life and noone promised us an easy ride..but with friends about  it does make things better. Thank you so much Cherie for your kind words xxx 

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A Lonely Journey

Can I just interject, and say that this comment meeting of you two people(Cheerie and Grammy), may just cause a rift in the fabric of today's mean society, and cause permanent kindness to abound forever, as you're 2 of the nicest people in the world. 
Sorry to interrupt. 
Carry on. 

M. 

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Lol....I thought I felt you hovering in the shadows, Matthew.  I just cannot be moved with emotions whenever someone is hurting and children are involved.  My oldest son, Collin is grown and married now, and I am proud of the man he has become, but I do hope that when he has children that he never has to go through such pain as Lodigiana has expressed.  We always worry about your children...even as adults and we cannot control their decisions...I was moved....What can I say?  I wish there was an easy answer.  xo

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A Lonely Journey

You know, Cheerie(sorry Loki about writing on your thingy), I'm not sure how you survive in this world having such a kind heart, but please don't ever let things get you down, we need more people like you in the world. You're great. 
And the same goes to you, Grammy! 
Love, 
Matthew. 

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lodigiana

I think that I can speak for Cherie also when I say that interacting with many people on Cosmo is a real pleasure but in particular with you my honorary grandson..your quirky sense of humour, inate kindness and  your constant positivity and encouragement is a joy for us to experience in what can sometimes be a tough old world. Thank you Matthew
Your Grammy xx 

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A Lonely Journey

Ohhh Grammy, my heart! Thank you!! That is sooooooo nice to hear. You're the best!! 
Love, 
Matthew. 

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