Just a faceless girl in the crowd

Dear Diary,
Just a faceless girl in the crowd,
Bustling through the noise trying to find a reason, what’s the point?
Struggling to breathe,
In constant pain,
Can’t find the words to explain how I really feel,
So, I say “I’m okay” to brush it away,
My head is busting on the daily,
I have never been so tired of being tired,
Sick & tired of all the crying,
All the fake smiling,
I’m sick of faking,
Tired of lying.
 
Just a faceless girl in the crowd,
Who one day fears sticking out,
Getting noticed with tears streaming down my face as I find my way home,
I have no reason so please don’t ask,
I’m beyond frustrated and exhausted,
Pushing through the hard days,
Sleeping through the tough days,
Losing my mind,
I need a release.