Justify

Every day that passes now my
wife as gone 
I try to justify my still being here
And no matter hard try to justify I cannot find a reason  I'm very sad to say I can't do Christmas any more birthdays
no valentines
cards we always gave to each other
written I love you now forever and always
In truth I never thought  I'd be the one that would be left behind
I find it very hard to cope but being able to justify my life
all I had and all I was Is
now all gone
If I could have given Helen more time free of pain to spend with her Children and Grandchildren I would given my life more than happy
to gone before for 
that's the way It should have been Helen deservedly​​​​​​
​​​​​​should have been given more time 62
was far to young to 
Lose one's life that
way
I will try and continue to struggle on but every day hurt so much a pain
I no will never go away.