Letter to my math teacher uneddited

I know she'll never read this but...

What's the point in this all, I know I'm giving my all, and I answer all the questions and do as I'm asked and I take notes and follow along I mean sure I have my downfall days but don't we all. For example yesterday I was full of red or as I call it the rage. Meaning focus was down and ignorance was up, wasn't no ones fault just a bad day was all, heck it's just been a bad day altogether, I mean iss and getting dumped by my love witch iv known since 3rd grade and then everything else, so apologies for yesterday. Now it's obvious you can see I'm struggling and confused as hell, I mean my honor and dignity stops me from asking questions because first off I have no clue what I'm confused about all I know is somethings isn't right. And I'm not going to ask for extra help I mean worse enough people think I'm dumb and mental I mean I am but they don't know that. And I don't want to just yell out to make it even more obvious, I don't know there's just something wrong with me, there always is, if not asthma then brain trauma if not brain trauma then life if not life then puberty. It's always something who knows what's wrong with me, I know I work and follow along and listen to you, who knows maybe I'm just a screw up. Or just not meant to be, but what I do know is I indeed am struggling, I was exposed to be held back, and everything personally to be honest I'm what my doctor said retarded. God I hate that word, but I'm hard at learning, and second graphs and maps are my worst subject, I can't see them well, and looking at them to long causes small surges of hand and muscle spasms witch isn't good, or at least I don't like them, so graphs has always been a problem for me especially cause it's hard to even read the squares, witch is why my career path I choose doesn't involve graphs, anyhow I appreciate everything you do for me to learn, but I'm just not cut out for it, heck I still don't know how to simplify a equation or change a point slope into a whatever the rest are called. Personally just telling me "hay that's wrong you should redo it," isn't enough personally I'm to shy to ask for help or ask a neighbor. I don't know why it's just the way I am, I'm the loner, to be honest I only have or had 3 friends Jetta Whitney and Jenny but Jenny dumped me for who knows how, so I guess just Jetta and Whitney, so I'm alone pretty much, lol guess I have no man friends who'd of guessed, anyhow all I'm saying is I could use some one on one extra help otherwise I'm never going to amount to anything in that class, il just be that fool no one will remember who's left behind. As usual I'm often left behind but I do indeed wish for that to improve, and I'm willing to try, thank you.