Letting Go

I don't know why I can't get over you, Even after everything you've put me through, I still love you, I'm alive but you make me feel so dead, you ignore me and it goes to my head, I've called your house, your cell, I've even tried messaging you on Facebook, but for reasons I don't know, you're like a fish that I just can't hook, you left my life and came back, only for a little while then you'd leave again and it'd feel like I was having a heart attack, I've spent years crying over you, wondering what it was that I did to you, how could you hate me, but I still love you?, I think part of the reason I hang on to you is because I know you, I dont think having me was the accident, I think knowing you is the real tradgity, you're nothing but a sperm donor, now I know why I was always a loner, but not anymore, I'm done fighting myself over you, this spot in my heart for you is finally frozen, saying goodbye to you is the choice I've finally chosen. If something ever happens to you, just know that I love you, but I wouldn't want to know, because I wouldn't want to ask myself, if losing you would be a grief, or if losing you would be a relief