Letting go of Everything Blue

I don't doubt that you will always be a voice in my head
I have never and will never doubt a single word that you said
You will forever be the ghost of a shape in my bed
My heart shattered as I cleaned up the place where you bled
Where you lost your mind, where I lost my head
Where you went back on everything that we once said
When you called for the kiss of the crone and filled me with dread
When I offered you freedom, but you chose death instead

We were one from the start
In mind and heart
We were never alone, never apart
A muse and a work of art

I can always stand up on my own
I don't mind being alone
But you couldn't stand without the love I had shown
It was something you needed to own

I lost you to something you couldn't control
But you tried to give up because you didn't feel whole
As if I was the other half of your soul
That emptiness took it's toll

Why couldn't you just open your eyes and see
That you truly were what I thought you to be
Why couldn't you love yourself the way you loved me
Why couldn't you let go and be free

Why did you have to be so small
Deep down underneath it all
Why couldn't you just answer her call
Why did I try to save you at all

Here I am again trying to do what is best for us both
Here I am trying to keep my sacred oath

Where are you now when I reach into the dark like before
Back in your cage gripping the key to the door
Not willing to face the unknown to help me up off the floor

I died a million times inside to save you
Because you wouldn't try to swim
You left me alone to face all the pain
Because seeing the truth was just too grim

Not strong, not brave, not built to survive
I wanted so badly just to keep you alive
But you just had no will and no drive
There was nothing of worth for which you would strive

Never had anyone loved me so deeply before
You'd have given your life for another moment more

Not a single soul could have kept you from me
There was not another face in the world you'd rather see
If I was your prison you didn't want to be free
If I was your pain it was blissful agony

But I didn't need saving or the blood you would give
I didn't need you to suffer and die, but to strive and live

And though you'd have given me the world on spoon
A drop of sunlight or a slice of the moon

Loving yourself and being free
Was the one thing you would never do
Not even for me

Now you choose darkness
Alone in your hell
Over a chance to be forgiven
A chance to be well

You think its your fault
To your magic I fell
But I have always been immune
To that little spell

My love was real
Perfect and true
But my love for myself
Is stronger than my love for you

And I wish the same had been true for you too
I will never forget you, my Neptune, My Bard, My Everything Blue