Look At Me

Currently trying to find the reason why, the reason why all you do is tell lies. How can I please what is nothing but a disease. How can you tell me who I am when I'm high, don't you know happiness is found amongst the clouds in the sky. Love me or hate me don't ever put me on a scale and rate me. I don't know if my rambles are sending me into a shadow; but, I hide in the shadows found behind, a life so benign. I jumped from one stepping stone to another, I never thought I'd slip and be alone. Why do you say this slip up cost me my life, as if it was chopped up by a knife. You pushed me down, but in the end I'll make you look like a clown. I'll never stop chasing my dream, this life isn't as dark as it may seem. Sure to you my life may seem boring, quiet yet roaring. I saw you the other day, standing as time stood still, I have feelings I'd rather not admit to say. I've found a minor delay. I'm controlled by a malevolent force, listen here I know you don't want to hear this but; I want a divorce. I want my peace and serenity back I'm tired of you changing my words; as if hiding my identity in a sack. There's nothing stopping me from triumph, from finding my everlasting bliss, but seeing you and having you ripped from my heart makes your name something I miss. With every sentence I say I contradict myself; everything I say I take back, as if seconds are slower than this time. I had the idea once of trying to make you mine. Don't try to say a single word, don't try to take from me what I don't have; don't try to hang me out to dry. My real personality hides from you as it is shy. You know nothing of who I am or where I came from; you only know a name that doesn't come close to identifying me. I am more than what you see.