Lost

I’m drifting blindly. Fearful, emotion overdosed. My heart is pumping, my blood is flowing, my face is blank and I am drowning. I am paralysed. I’m inhumane. I hurt and I hurt and it never stops. Drifted way too far. Relief is nowhere near. I see nothing. I wish to see the front somewhere close, a glimpse of light, that’s all I ask. What do I do with the gold I hold, so dearly. If I’ll drown. But if i won’t will I find my way, or will I make my way. Free to go but where? I am angry. I’m boring. I’m uninterested. I’m tired. I’m apatic. I can’t work out who I am, how do I work. How do I function. I have no answers. I think alot, but don’t know anything. I want to help, tell stories, create. But I just don’t know. My mind goes blank. I am split from reality. I ask myself what’s the point? Why are people bothered with all that shit. Ask me. In the ideal world i’d say ‘i don’t know’ followed by ‘who gives a fuck?’.