Lost

I lost my voice somewhere between my adult years and my teens

Through love and marriage, I lost more of me

Through child birth and pregnancy, I started to disappear

Through friends growing up, there was no one left to hear

Still, I walk through life, on a journey unknown

Lost in the wilderness, always alone

The love I had, was lost on the way

So instead of love, I have found despair

I kept the marriage, whilst trying to raise the man

I love my child, and am doing all that I can

Still I found new friendships, but soon they will disappear

For to be lost, is to be alone, which is my biggest fear

I once had the dream, of riches in life

Good job, lots of friends, to share with the love of my life

Children, well behaved, good schools and fun

Life full of smiles, with no time to have none

But the dream is lost, and the riches are not plenty

If my life is a meal, my belly is empty

The love of my life, has long disappeared, and in his place a man I do fear

I work just to keep the roof over our heads, he lives just to feed his own selfish needs instead

My child is so fragile, with a future uncertain, another I carry, feels more like a burden

I look in the mirror and wonder how I lost so much, but my reflections turns away, it has lost my trust

So I am lost, I lost myself  along the way

The self that was I, has long disappeared

The person I was, has turned into dust

The journey I take, I no longer want

Who will I be, when I reach journey’s end?

No one I know, for I am lost