Lost and trapped in purgatory

Ten years ago, or even twenty years ago I kind of some what knew who I was. Now today I haven't seen the women I once was. I have lost myself as I once knew. The person I once knew is lost,I have lost my way threw this sucky life of mine.
The only thing that I know is, I am a daughter, a mother, and a friend. But is that all I really am? I am lost in purgatory,  I know I'm not dead or even dieing but my life seems to be stuck in purgatory. How do i find myself and move away and forward in my life instead of being stuck in purgatory. 
This is hell for me,I am trapped no way out feeling like I am suffocating. I have lost myself, no sign of me coming back to the girl I used to be and knew.
I hav3 come to expect that purgatory is the only thing I will ever know.
I am trapped no way out,my screams for help can not be herd for I am invisible, lost for all eternity trapped in purgatory.