Lost Love

in vain
i tried
to call
your name
but as usual
the reply
was always
the same

you said
you'd be there
but while i sat
and stared
clutching my pillow
you once again
left me in shadows

with nothing
but the flicker
of a candle
to keep me
company

it was as if
you really thought
it was funny

toying with my emotions
without once having the notion
to even honor the fact
it was to you i was devoted

a lifetime spent
pursuing you
but somehow
this torment
only empowered you

i'll admit
i was selfish
and credit
my intent would
just never relent

while i stayed
in the chase
of this game
of "hard to get"
winning
your affection
was a prize
i fought hard
to defend

but maybe
thats where
i slipped

my grip
was clutched
just a little
too tight
and the pressure
sent you
into
"fight or flight"

while it was more
of the "fight"
before the "flight"
i regret the fact
you were the one
that i let slip
from my sight