Love, im sorry.

My eyes puffy, burning from the wipes. I had to wipe the tears away and blow my nose/ my face feels like its burning, it hurts to blink. What did i do wrong?

I know how i feel inside. But instead YOU tellme how i feel, which confuses me/ i know what hurts me because ive felt that before, when ur heart sinks to your stomach feeling//.

I try to explain to you whats wrong with me, whats bothering me, i try to stand up for myself and my feelings, but u shut me
Down before i can. I get scared, i sit still/

It just hurts,my heart, my face, my insides, your words. The words of you having to smoke to tolerate me, the i wish i can knock u out/ begging you with my eyes to take it back but knowing you wont/ and you dont//

Telling me hurtful things, that hurt. Really hurt. And little do you know i am someone. With a heart and feelings/ that what you say actually hurts my person, that without u i still am a human being//.

What hurts most is that i hurt, and you dont/ i been crying for an hour straight and instead of hearing me cry, you pop in ur headphones//

Thinking i knew what love is, and it just being snatched from me/and you know whats sad is u picture love but when they say love and see what they do, u think is this what it really is? Do they really love me??// 

See in my previous relationships i had people cheat,lie,cheat,cheat,lie.. and yet they all said they loved me. And i never gave up on love/ and when i found it, or when i thought i did. And it hit me that it wasnt, i gave up on you love// 

Im sorry i gave up,but i just kept gettin hurt. I kept getting lied to and cheated on and used, and Love, they made me feel like i was nothing to them/ Like i didnt matter, they made me feel lonely,and sad, really sad. Love,they used ur name in vain//

Im sorry