Love Letter

I love you. I love you with everything that I have and I hate it. I wanted to hate you for everything but I just can’t. You cross my mind almost everyday. I hear a song or see something and instantly think of you. Like a shot to the heart in an instant I’m back to that 7th grade nostalgia. I can’t tell you how much I tried to hate you but every single time I saw you everything you did wrong just melted away and for a moment I had pure happiness. My heart skipped a beat, I got those stupid butterflies that made me feel extraordinary. You were my best friend and you still are, I don’t care what you do to me, how bad you hurt me; my love for you is unconditional. Know that. Anything you do in your life, if you destroy yourself; know I’m here. I’ll always be here and I want to help you if you’re willing to let me. I guess in short I’m saying I want my best friend back, I’m willing to try again, we’ve always fought but I will never truly forgot or left you. With you I feel we always find our way back to each other. No matter the time apart, no matter the distance, no matter the mistakes; I will always love you. Know these words come from my heart, know I’m not lying to you. I am willing to try again if you are willing to let me. I know there’s been endless chances, so many mistakes, but those don’t matter to me. I admit, I’m not perfect, at times I feel I pushed you too far and pushed you away. I’m sorry for what I’ve done to you, and if I’ve ever hurt you. This isn’t just you, understand that. My life is better when there’s an us instead of a you and me. The bond we shared I never wanted to lose, and I’m willing to fight for it. These feelings lied dormant, and I acted on impulses and I see my mistakes. I’m a fuck up, I just hope you forgive me, I just hope you understand how much you mean to me and how much I love you; I just want you back. I understand if you don’t want to see me or talk to me under the circumstances, but, life changes and we grow but love never changes and I know you know that. If you took your time to read this, thank you, I love you and I hope whatever you decide to do; I hope it makes your life worth while. With or without me. I’m not going to say goodbye, I’m just going to say see you later, to me this still isn’t an end; find happiness, and know I love you.