A Mind in Darkness

You panic, heart racing and pupils dilated 

Take another puff just to keep your thoughts sedated

This urge within you, is threatening to consume you

But you've managed to keep this secret suffocated 

To give up now is to plan a new life where

Your name is anonymous and your face is lifeless

Hold on to the last minute of your humanity

As you close your eyes and let that demon free

Maybe to avert my clearly longing gaze

Is to give back the remainder of your stolen days

I always hear of love at first sight

But no one talks of the death in these eyes

My soul recked and my mind lost

Like so many others, my future tossed

Into the mix of maybe and never

I never knew self-destruction could be so clever

To steal what you love, and make you think that's what you want

And then give you the memories as a slow agonizing taunt

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I recently found this poem among one of my many journals and notebooks. I had written it at a rather young age. I hope you enjoyed this little piece.