For mom and dad (from an insecure kid)

Dear mom and dad
I apologize if this,seems bad
But there are some things
I need off my chest
I am your eldest
And probably the most saddest
I am not the best
Nor do I stand out from among the rest
There are some errors
I have done
And my record is not the cleanest
Under the sun
I don't have my sister's ambition and maturity
Nor do I have my brother's ingenuity
I say stupid things
And my idiocy stings
But I am still your child
Both outrageous and wild
I often feel misunderstood
And more than always I'm seen as rude
But I'm not my sister
I am not my brother
You cannot compare us with each other
I feel I've not made you proud
After all, I'm crazy and loud
I feel there is no point in loving me
Since I fail to be what you want me to be
My talents are not amazing
And I'm often labelled irritating
Since then my self image has suffered from this rating
I hear you always boast about my siblings
But you fail to see how I am hurting
I feel you don't trust me to make a success
And mumble your misgivings when you're not impressed
I know I am different
You need not tell me how
And at times I wish I were rather a stone, dog or cow
Tell me if I am worth your time
Because...
I'm hoping you'd see my pain through this ryhme
Just one look of approval
Is all I ask
Don't make me want to put on a mask
I wish I can please you
In all I say and do
But I'm just a nobody
Wishing to be a somebody
I long for your approving nod
That gleam on your eye
That proud sigh
Maybe one day when I'm a famous poet
Maybe then I will be noticed
For I do have a gift
And it is to write
Matters not if its deemed wrong or right
One day you will see my climb
And watch me as I shine
You'll be proud of me someday
Somehow... Some way...

By Eden Van Der Nest