Survivor of a toxic narcissist

It’s disgusting how you took what was bright and true blue 
and made it dull and dead. 
It’s utterly repulsive how you took what could’ve been beautiful and bright and desecrated it. 
You allow those dark sickening voices in your head to wrap a good heart to shreds you second-guess every good deed, you were only happy when you made a heart bleed 
Then you throw HIS name around like a penalty card using HIS existence as penance for your despicable acts! 
You have a vile heart and you know it,
that’s why you seek to destroy anything kind you call it fakeness, when I chose to turn a blind eye to your constant nauseating moods, 
you repay kindness with self conjured wrath 
You took Goodwill and annihilated it! 
You wicked one of strife and wrath 
your past experiences is *NOT* an excuse to use acts of kindness as a *means to an end* 
you Weaponized love to strike blows that you knew would cut deep you carry grudges like a mother cradles, a newborn 
You nurture , hatred like a mother would nurture her child 
you let envy suck from you 
You let guile rock you to sleep because you see through the lens of jealousy, pettiness, and distrust! 
Aching spasms from how I had to constrict my muscles as I tiptoe on egg shells, hoping to not awaken the beast. 
You took my love and left it to rot in the desert of your parched and twisted heart 
While I was knitting a bond of forever loyalty and love, you were ripping up the fabric and stained it with your own blood, blood you spilled from belligerently tearing at the seams with your seam ripper of discord 
You thrived on my energy, sucked me dry and left me hollow. 
An emotional vampire who cared not what carnage she left after satisfying her need for a fight! 
May my mind blot you out forever! 
May eternity unfold and still no thought of you come to mind. 
I want no part in your destiny of destruction. Let those who have NO CHOICE but to love you, continue putting up with your toxic mind
God knows I don’t have to! 
I free myself from your clutches 
The prison you polished for me 
with your random promises (actually lies) 
May God help me forget the letters of your name 
As I gracefully bow out of your wicked game!