My Fault

The weight on the scale is blurred.

Blurred because of my tears,

All of a sudden, it's hard to breathe,

My brain flips through all my fears.

I know the blame falls on me- it's me. I did this,

I remind myself and the guilt eats away at me.

I made this happen.

And the self-hate grows like an ugly demon, rearing its face.

And I cower back, hating the reflection of my sins.

I chose to binge and this is my fault.

This is my fault.

My fault.