My Life Is A Mystery

My life is a mystery
Keeps everyone wondering.
Not many people know,
The real me does not show.

There's a side of me that will scare,
Kids and adults can not bare.
No one besides God can understand,
I hide behind a mask run while you can.

No one has seen me more than mad,
But when they do I won't be glad.
I will run away and onto a cliff,
Where the crush of the ocean waves sound stiff.

My heart will beat fast and not listen to my head,
I will walk backwards then run and jump straight ahead.
I will feel so free but also in a rush,
I'll land in the water and my bones will crush.

Blood will rise to the top though I do not die,
I will feel no pain, I will not cry.
I will scream for the fact I am not the same,
I will not go back, no, never again.