My old friend

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My old friend

Your big strong hands around my neck,
Squeezing so hard it’s going to crack.
I can not breath my chest is so tight 
Why can i never win this fight ?

You creep into my life, Such a silent threat
You start in my head , then move into my neck.
My shoulders are next on your long list of pain,
Then its my chest you hit with such vein!

My mind starts to cycle, the wheels turn so fast,
With worry and thoughts you bring up from my past.
I’m trying to swallow , but it gets stuck
Right in my throat its hurting so much.

Then comes the tears , I’ve tried to hold in
‘ Release me!’ Their saying .’Don’t let him win!!’
On to my cheeks their starting to flow
Then faster and thicker , i have no control.??

The things i am thinking about inside my head
Your bringing up stuff and I'm wishing i’m dead ?
Your presence is silent but your voice is so loud
Please go away , please lift this cloud .

I can not think straight , my vision is fake.
How do you do this? You come and just take!!?
My familys around me , and that’s still not enough
They can’t bring me back , your powers to tough.

Everything in my sight , you make seem so wrong 
I can’t be myself until you have gone ☹️.

When all of a sudden, i see a small light ? 
A little bit of hope , be that it might!!!❤️

But you let out a laugh ?
And you blow it right out!
There’s no room in here for NOTHING but doubt.?

You then pull me back to that dark place,
And tell me I'm stuck here and I’m not safe?
So i go back to being that  ‘quiet me.’
with my good old friend..Anxiety.

Colleen x