My Pillow

 
Pillow hide my secrets away
Like how you hid my secret tears.
I lay here crying
Not able to hiccup
Not able to sound my pain
For the monster
May wake
Force me to acknowledge
My pain.
The gaping hole in my stomach
Nothing can fill it
Except you and only you.
I wrap my arms around you
And hug you tight
For you may slip
Out my arms
As quiet as you came.
I count down the days
I have left with you
For I have to leave
And go far, far away.
I cry
For you cannot accompany me
And will be left alone in this
Strange, cruel world.
I wish I could stay
And turn back the time
And play the same tune
Over and over again
Like a broken record player,
That’s what I am
Broken and Sad.
Pillow stow my secrets away,
For I have to wake tomorrow
And play pretend.
Pretend I’m happy,
Pretend I’m not broken.
Pretend I have time.