~My Reasons For Suicide~

0 My mother wanted an abortion but it was too late
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3 I am being abused by the woman I call Aunt
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5 Blackie the belt was introduced to my buttocks 
6 I had no friends in school
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8 I was abused and poisoned by the babysitter, aka another relative that I no longer claim
8 I was kidnapped and molested 
8 My parents split up 
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9 I sat alone at lunch 
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11 Name any object, I bet I've been hit by it 
12 A new school 
12 My mother told me to not talk at all 
12 My family had secrets
12 I was introduced to the school counselor and psychologist
12 I began to write
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13 My mother told me that she should have gotten her tubes tied after my brother, I wouldn't have been born.
13 I began to cut 
13 I was introduced to another counselor
13 DFS was involved in my case because my mother threatened me with a knife, but they closed the case 
13 I was sent to a mental hospital 
13 I was bullied 
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14 I was hospitalized again
14 Another case with DFS was opened because my father punched and choked me, but the case was dropped because marks don't show to well on my skin color
14 My mother wanted a divorce so she split up with my dad
14 My mother's new boyfriend liked to touch me when my mother wasn't around 
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15 Hospitalized again
15 My mother said I wasn't going to kill myself because if I was really going to, I would have done it by now.. Thanks mom. 
15 My mother refused to take me to counseling
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16 DFS was involved again because my father pulled a loaded gun on me, the case was closed because the worker knew my father. Thanks for your help.. 
16 I came out of the closet to my parents about being bisexual 
16 The love of my life committed suicide on the phone with me 
16 I was hospitalized again
16 My Dad remarried to this horrible woman who made my life hell 
16 I was bullied by my so called step sister and stepmom
16 I overdosed on Abilify 
16 The thought of suicide became an obsession 
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17 I was hospitalized again
17 The abuse hadn't stopped 
17 I had unstable housing since my parents were divorced
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18 There was nothing the state could help do anymore, I was now an adult 
18 I was hospitalized yet again
18 I was homeless and sleeping in my car
18 My ex boyfriend tricked me when having sex, he took off the condom without me knowing, and ended up giving me herpes. Thanks for ruining my life. 
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19 Hospitalized again
20 The age I am now, I still have unstable housing 
20 I was hospitalized for the 20th time, hopefully my last. 
20 Suicide crosses my mind 
20 I'm waiting to turn 21 before I carry out my plan, I want to be able to drink so I won't feel the pain 
20 My birthday is in September 
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21 Thank you everyone who tried to help me survive. Thank you everyone else who helped me finalize my decision, you all can burn in hell with me.
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0 My life flashes before my eyes.. 
~Shaneer Henry~