MY TEARS

All the tears I once cried
I kept them bottled up inside
Now my tears refuse to form
Though my eyes are opened wide
I can't show my emotions
Though I feel them in my heart
The unresolved feelings
Silently, tearing me apart
I learned all too well;
How to stuff my pain inside
How to push down my feelings
Until it felt like something died
I wish I could cry real tears
I wish I could show how I feel
But when you can't convey emotions
You begin to wonder if you're real
I don't know how to show emotions
 I've forgotten how to cry
But if I'm ever going to learn
I guess, now's the time to try
So I tried to force my tears to come
I tried to release a crying sound
But all I got was a lump in my throat
My tears would not be found
Now I scream into my pillow
For my tears that have gone away
I keep searching, keep hoping
That they'll return someday