Narcissistic Queen

Self esteem high 
doesn’t last long
intermittently only seen 
due to the Narcissistic Queen.

Ignored, belittled and scorned 
all the way back to the age of four from that moment on, I was FAT full of incapabilities, FACT!

Well cared for I cannot deny 
yet felt fear instead of love inside. Tried to avoid upset, aimed for perfection, a little too high.

A “pleaser” I became,
there to serve not be heard.  
Based myself on someone she 
liked, losing myself at same
time.

Years roll on and I still please
still being someone else still on my knees. Looking for affection from the Narcissistic Queen.