"Never Going Back!"

"To stand by and in awe,
of relentless love,
makes me,
so appreciative,
of my God above,
for He showers down,
a feeling,
in my being,
that gives me,
such a strong calm,
in what all I'm dealing,
with.

I used to turn my head,
at the thought of Him,
truly being real,
and drugs were instead my god.
An escape from what's real,
to numb the pain,
I would constantly feel,
and nothing could sway,
this course of action.
Drugs were the only way,
to reach satisfaction,
because I was empty,
a bottomless pit,
and tossed in that massive hole,
all the drugs I could get.

Because drugs numbed the pain,
of being empty,
without the God of Light,
and I had to flip flop,
both of those,
to win in this fight.
The disease of addiction,
had rearranged my brain,
and I feared,
I would never ne the same,
and truth be told,
I wasn't at all.
I answered God's Call,
and got up after that fall,
and became a better person,
because I try,
to help others and I live,
instead of trying to die,
slowly by drugs,
that never gave me a real chance.
Now in recovery,
my spirit does dance,
because God taught me,
there's always a second chance,
and I intend to severly use it,
and not those drugs.
If I started again,
I would only abuse it,
and make a mockery,
of God's Loving Grace.
All to chase a simple feeling,
and a simple taste."