New years without you

(January 2012)

Today marks the beginning
Of a new year
It would be much better
If you were still here
The day you died
Part of me did too
And without you here
I don't know what to do
You had all the answers
And knew what to say
It would have been nice
If you had just stayed
I guess in Gods eyes
He needed you more
I just don't understand
Or realize what for
I miss your smile
I miss your face
You are one
Who can never be replaced
Jacob still talks about you Meemaw
Even though some said he'd forget you
But how could he
You were important to him too
My guardian angel in life
Protecting and raising me
You were truly a blessing
This took me a long time to see
I didn't realize
Until it was too late
My sweet precious grandma
You were always so great
You were patient and kind
With a huge loving heart
I never even imagined
We would ever be apart
You made me
The woman I am today
And in my heart
Is where you'll always stay
I miss you so much
More than words can describe
Sometimes it hurts so bad
And I wish I could hide
You took me in
When no one else would
Whatever I tried to do
You made me believe I could
You pushed me
To be the best I could be
So why did it take loosing you
To make me see
I need you in my life
I wish you were here
I never realized loosing you
Was my biggest fear
I love you so much
And I'll miss you forever
I look forward to the time
When we'll be back together