NOBODY KNOWS

Nobody knows what they have got

Till they don`t have it anymore.

My son gave me many pleasures in life

Gifts both great and small.

But most importantly

He gave me his love

The most beautiful gift of all.

A sparkling light has been snuffed out of my life

Oh, what I would give, just to see it shine.

All I have now are memories

Of the life we had when he was mine.

Nobody knows the treasure they have got

Until they are snatched from your grasp.

And you won`t be able to hold them anymore.

Then into hell your life descends

As pure misery walks through the door.

Everyone loves the sunshine

But I just want the rain.

Because in the sun I can`t hide my tears

Now I know he`ll never be coming home to me again.

You see, death took him from me

There was no second chance!

Now I will never again easily smile.

I was so happy with him by my side

But now this pain is just too hard for me to hide.

What do I do now that he`s gone?

Where do I go from here?

My world was such a joy

Now its just filled with these endless tears.

They say that time is a healer!

But how can that be?

He`s gone from me now and its left a huge hole

Where my heart used to be.

The impression I give to the world

Is sadly just a big pack of lies.

The smile on my face is just a front

It`s just one big disguise.

I miss his beautiful smile

And the cheeky way he used to wink.

I took my happiness for granted

Now it even tears me apart, just simply trying to think.

This pain is never ending

I really don`t want to be here.

Mum`s kisses are supposed to make things better!

But I can`t kiss him anymore, because he`s no longer near.

Now all I have are words on paper

A therapy spread thin.

But I`m not ill and I don`t need a Doctor!

Please Lord!! I just need him.

For my son Andrew 25/2/78--4/5/09

I love you sweety.