Not a fairy tale ending

It all started one day with you,
Asking me to go to prom.
But I pushed you far away,
Because I was afraid of love.

I always wondered so deeply,
About what all the people would think.
Because how could someone like you,
End up with someone who looks like this?

It doesn’t take a scientist to see,
That we were on separate levels.
You were way different than me,
And with other woman you reviled.

I was not the definition of pretty,
I was rather awkward and plain.
You were destined for the city,
And I wanted a home to stay.

I looked away and let the tears fall,
Because I never wanted you to see.
I was trying to reach out and call,
But My heart turned cold and bleek.

About a year ago we started again,
Now there is so much longing and regret.
you say that we are only friends,
I wish to push a button that resets.

Because maybe if I gave you a chance then,
Things could have been exceptional.
But instead I’ve come to a dead end,
Of something that was special.