Not Easy

I am insensitive,
I have a tendency to pay more attention to the things that I need.
Sometimes I drink too much,
Sometimes I test your trust,
Sometimes I don't know why you stay with me.
I am a short fuse,
I am a wrecking ball
Crashing into your heart like I do
You're like a Sunday morning, full of grace and forgivness
I wish that I could be more like you.
I'm hard to love, 
No, I don't make it easy,
I couldn't do it if I stood where you stood.
You say that you need me,
I don't deserve it but I love that you love me