One Day At A Time

On the search for my purpose
I've barely scratched the surface
There sure is a surplus
Of distractions in this circus
Walking in circles
Cause I'm nervous 
Stuck in a me society 
Never us
With heads down and defenses up
How can we ever trust
Its never much
Making bonds bust
And hearts break
Along with promises
Sociopaths raising the cabbage patch
How the seeds gonna know what wrong is
I'm fine moving at a snails pace
Don't wanna win this rat race
Losing weight 
Watching America feed its fat face
Somehow in this crowded space
I've settled down and found
My happy place
Its hard to change its true
I had to call a truce
And face plenty of pain
Bright days came after
Plenty of rain
Faith in something
Keeps me sane
When uncertainty says they can't remain
Had to retrain my brain
To not get lost in the nauseas process
Its easier said then done 
For one to overcome
Skeptical if life exists outside grey clouds
When you've always lived under one
And it feels like odds are against you 
A hundred million to one 
Remember that our energy is forever
And real love is never done
My mind is clear
After many moons
Only natural after all the poisons I've consumed 
Presently dealing with problems
Previously pushed away with a broom
Life's a little to real sometimes
No longer a cartoon
No more getting drunk before noon
Or killing pain
With a hollow tipped harpoon
I'll hold onto the memories
I can remember 
Slowly let the scabs of shame
Fall like snowflakes in December
Let myself 
Forgive myself
But never forget
So I'll tread carefully on this tightrope I walk
Knowing how easy it can be to slip on shit