'Only One Hurting'

I wonder if everyone sees us as a burden?

I wonder if they wished we were dead than alive!

I wonder if their faith in God is stronger than mine?

I wonder if we were meant to be here from the beginning; I can tell by their eyes that they talk about our mother and her children! But they were never there for her since she was diagnosed with Cancer.

I wonder if they wished their precious daughter had abandoned us;

maybe she would still be here, now.

I wonder what they talk about when we leave the house?! Creeping through our rooms without permission, invading the privacy we never had growing up.

I wonder if there is hatred in their hearts;

because they blame us for driving her to her death bed!

I wonder; if only they could feel the pain running through our veins, squashing and splashing everywhere inside our bodies. Knowing how hurtful and painful it is to keep living this life without our precious mother.

To feel guilt eating us whole in one gulp.

But I doubt they'll think about our feelings - because they're the 'only ones' hurting ?

Gwen.P