Our calling

The years passed by so quickly
Friends, we were close like brothers, 
We held each others secrets safely 
A meaningful trust, unlike the others, 
You sadly lost both of your parents 
Your brother was there now & again, 
Years later you lost him sadly too
I didn't know how you hid all the pain, 
Years went by, you had your health scares
You fell in love & lost the love you craved, 
Your children grew to hate you, not your fault 
Your ex again hurt, all that you saved, 
One night you went out with wrong people 
You had a drink, they gave you something strong, 
They left you for dead, I was the last to know 
Couldn't say my goodbyes, didn't want to go on, 
I knew I'd die with no one around me
I'd lost all my friends, my brother & more, 
Unsure which path to follow to emptiness 
Searching for a light, finding a locked door, 
You visit me every day now, spirituality 
I feel empty like a bulb, that's burnt out, 
I don't want to play this, game anymore 
I lost my faith, lost what it's all about, 
I hear your whisper, I hear my name
You said you would return to visit me, 
I want to be with my lost ones once more
I hate life's scars, I just want to be free, 
Some blame me for my friend dying 
I want to burn down the story I've been shown, 
I had everything when I was younger 
A dark cloud followed, after I was grown, 
Now my hair grows more grey every day 
I feel empty & lost with every tear shed, 
My calling will come, my calling calls me
My life falls behind, when it should be ahead.