Our last strokes

You always felt more than me,
Your pain has always been greater
than mine.............................
so that's why you never saw my chipping
heart

I was always the shadow looking through
the window of your life hoping one day,
you will realize.............and rescue my
freezing being screaming out for help,
instead you broke my spirit

Emptied my heart for you,
thinking that if I loved you a little more
...........you will see through my pain
and listen to the stories that my scars
have to tell but instead you bruised
my fragile mind leaving me immobile

I buried my tears deep within hoping to
subside my weakness that keeps curving
its way to light........................
but you found it anyway and crippled
the minutus hope I had for us,
stumped over the source of little light
I could see just when I was about to
find the strength to claw my way out
of the endless pit I dug for myself
.......hence leaving my bleeding
love bare

Even after those years....................
this is what I measure up to in your life,
that you couldn't hold onto my hand
as I sink into simple nothingness
You couldn't look back just for the sake of
your pride even after you have grinded mine
to dust,
I guess I have my foolishness to blame,
 for letting me believe through disappoints
that your love for me can leap over your
mistakes to hang onto me and revive the vanity
love..................even in our last strokes