Out of Focus

I missed the garbage and
fell into the toilet
Sight, sound all fucked up
and distorted
Maybe it was from the poison
I snorted
Or the drinks I stole
cause I couldn't afford it

Spilled my guts all
over the floor
Probably saved me from that
Aid induced whore
I stand myself up
ready for more
First I gotta make it
through that door

In case you didn't notice
I'm slipping out of focus
I'm disappearing into the
Foreground
I don't wanna live and
I don't wanna die
I just want to have
a good time

I've fallen into a desperate Isolation
Hid my head from a deadly premonition
Had a kid laughing inside of me
I let him drown in my apathy

I've taken my time and sang all the songs
Solved every riddle
Coughed out my lungs
I've kissed a few devils
Fucked a couple angles
I've seen the story from
A thousand different angles

I thought this time was supposed to be mine
I thought this American dream was mine to find
I thought this was the land of the free
All I see are a bunch of TV's