Please save me from my demise

Looking though this glass
Those haunted halls
I hate this feeling
Drawing the blood of a sick sinner
A dull blade forcefully pressed against my ever so tender skin
Oh how the pain feels like ecstasy
Please heaven save me
As I don’t mean to make such a petty offense 
I can’t help it 
I feel it pulse through my veins
As the heartbeat beat dashes throughout my impaired body
Please forgive this self inflicted defect
These walls cave in as I crave the blade
Doing anything possible to have it
Something to be able to pierce the scarred skin
The warped humanly form 
Please unleash this curse
This suffering carcass
Which feels so lifeless
It feels so unnatural 
Yet so ideal
The unhealthy addiction to satisfaction 
Please save me from my head
My thoughts
My ever growing fear of losing reality 
As I long for it to demise