Pushed

Gutted as I sit there and think what the fuck have I done

As reality start's to sink in and I realise it's all gone
Sharing is caring my nana once said
Those piss taking idiot's I start to see red
Taking my love for a weakness when im nothing but kind
Should have been a tight bitch and kept it all as mine
Budgeting it while still having a good time
For fuck sake god why didn't you show me a sign
now all I can do is sit and reminisce and try not to get so fucking pissed
So im back to square one im just a broke arse bitch
But I enjoyed my time of being sort of rich
The people I helped won't see them for dust
Them feeling content cuz they dont think they've been sussed 
Now it's mind over heart and not fucking lust
BAMM over the edge I've just been pushed