Quirkiness Of My Memory

no (apparent) rhyme nor reason
(satisfactorily) explains academic
disposition, ideally suited
(swiftly tailor made,
and harried styled)

unflattering venomous wicked xhenemy
(fill in choicest expletive) damn cruelest
"meanies" always in season
winter, spring, summer, or autumn,

psychological rabid
bullying and teas'n,
which only exacerbated
ma deathly coffin and wheeze'n.

Avenging beastly, eagerly,
and hungry knuckleheads, rip-snorting,
analogous to Doctor Zeus
characters, vis a vis stomped,

and trampled upon my wuss
self, who appeared as
a listless, passive, puss
see footing, and

timid complex edifice
christened Matthew Scott Harris,
who regularly got pushed,
shoved, and verbally gored

in utero potential quintessential
no salvation from Unitarian lord
ugly vicious wretched
insults liberally poured

(pre snapchat, instagram,
hash-tagged age) roared
increased spell of losing measured
necessary pridefulness scored

requisite susceptibility toward
brow beating, name
calling, plus tossed
brickbats staged early life, viz

psychological schizoid state courtesy
hateful nemesis within
corporeal lodge warred.
malevolent habitués received

permanent residency thence
"green lighted" status
since birth I cannot sense
sub billy understand

(near) total recall
particularly names
no matter offense
of classmates and/

or teacher's, hence
especially dumb
founding since defense
less "boy" did not

shine as a star student
as is if he (me)
took emotional absence.
plus to add insult

to injury, my mouth
stayed hermetically shut,
near invisibility designated nut
tin beat pluperfect

"scapegoat de jure,"
such intimidation found me
feeling thrashed in the gut
where (stellar) qualifications

only made cut
ting worse, (essentially attributed
to genetically inscribed
behaviors, characteristics,
habits, et cetera)

immediately designated yours truly
most puny, and
quietest convenient but
of any atheistic, ethnic,
and/or idiotic jokes.