To R

Lover.....when all's said and done, 
And we go our separate ways
When I see the golden sun set 
And I mourn her final rays.....  

When my fisted hand relaxes
Waving goodbye to the sun
I'm hoping I'll have no regrets,
But I'm guessing I'll have one

I'll wish our eyes had never met
And I'd never felt the shame
Of opening my heart to you
Or responding to your flame

I'll wish I never felt your lips
Or held you in my arms
Or let myself become enthralled
Distracted by your charms

I know you never loved me back....
But I love you just the same
My ecstasy, my holy wine,
My misery, my shame......

The pain is more than I can bear
And when my death releases
My shattered heart ...I'll love you still
With all the little pieces