R. I. H.

I talk to her even though sometimes it pains me to. Speak from the heart is what you hold me to. I reach for the stars and think i can grab on to you. Im starting to hold on strong enough as the hold you have on me. Bear hug i take it gladly. One more kiss in public i take it proudly. I love you i say it loudly. It hurts me more than it hurts you, get the picture. I didn't deny you in front of my friends just quoting scriptures. Our bond didnt need no extra work, no needed fixtures. I pour my heart out lets all have a taste,  i made pitchers. Halo over my head, its glows. Angels hold me as i watched your soul, its rose. How can i say goodbye and let her go. Ill run to the gates with her if it wasn't her time to go. See i remember grandma pretty girl. Under that exterior was a strong woman. It's heart breaking breath taking to me earth shaking. Who can i run to? Grandma. I turn to her and have a heart to heart. But she's gone so writing this i didnt know where to begin to start. I wanna take her out to the best steak house, her favorite spot. Sit back and laugh with her about old times while she's eating alot. Sneak her out of here and watch tombstone, one of your favorite movies. Lay my head on her making her laugh by being goofy. Number 65. I picked by accident. Unaware that was her birth year. Me seeing her in that bed with my bracelet on i shed tears. This day i planned for, so for this day i got rid of fears. I know if i can cry over my grandpa like it was yesterday this hole in my chest gon stay empty for years. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.