Realisation

It was okay the day
You said sorry
And the day after when you said 
You want me
The week that followed
When we got together
And the joy we shared when we saw
Each other
Then the month that flew by
With the constant message
And the requests that came with every
Passage
And the jokes that were made when you
Were mean
And the threats I gave 
'Cah I'm a Queen
But the truth that made it hard to feel
And the feelings that wouldn't yield
And the questions that were asked 
Made you think
And the tear I shed put me on the brink
I really wanted this "Forever"
The time we decided to be together
And the memories we had from long ago
To encourage us as we go
But it's hard to see what really matters
When your heart is stubborn
And you head is clattered
And the feels you have deepen more
And the things you want aren't there at all
But still 
You rose to their beckon call
And you still gave them time
Even though your heart said yes
And your head said no
And in the end you ask 
' Was it worth is? '
' Aren't I prefect? '
' Did I deserve it...
Any of it? '
Did I waste my time on an Uncommitted fool
Did I really fall deep in it with you
Was I happy?
Nah, I just wanted to feel...
But at the end of the day,
You knew the...
Deal.