"Really Using This Chance!"

"I've been in such a deep seeded denial,
for so many years,
drinking and smoking away,
all my tears and fears.

I've wasted ten or more years of my life,
at times I even fantasized,
slitting my throat with a knife.

I can't even count how many times,
I fantasized over my death,
but this time it almost happened,
smoking bath salts and meth.

Thank You so much God,
You gave me another chance!
I promise this time I won't use it in vain,
I'll use my life now,
for praising Your Name!"