Regret...
It's been 2 years now. Still can't stop thinking about it. Everyday I will think about it for a second. Even though in that short period. I still feel the same way I did 2 years ago. Regret is the only thing that's on my mind when it comes to this specific day. Time goes on but people don't change with time always. People can't escape the regret. They try but even trying is a battle. The regret is something I can't change. I will always just think about. I blame myself for it. Always question myself on the same thing. Why didn't I go to see her again. The time I did meet her, she was happy to see me. Made her laugh and reassured her that everything will be "okay"
However after a couple of days she passed away. I always blame myself because I had so much time but I wasted it. In that time I could have seen her again. Hurts me that it was the last time I saw her. There are many things in life we regret but these things take time to get over. Knowing me I won't because I still have that feeling of guilt in me.
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Hi Sweet Sana A.,
I know of what you speak. My dear Father was scheduled for open heart surgery on a cold January, Monday morning. He asked, so naively, that I not come see him early that morning. I think, in part, because they told him that they were going to shave his chest, and he was embarrassed. So, even though I arrived at the hospital hours before his surgery, I respected his wish, and did not go up to see him. In retrospect, I'm sure when he woke on that cold Monday morning, he had fears, and would have loved to hold his only Son before being wheeled out. He passed away on the operating table, and for thirty-nine years, I have lived with the guilt of not taking the elevator up to see him one last time. After reading your sad story, it inspired me to tell you mine.
Peace and Love,
xox Larry
Wow sorry about your Father. The feeling of regret is a difficult feeling and it takes time to get over. Me writing this allowed me to express how I actually felt. Made it easy to process them feelings I find hard telling someone. Writing was the only way for me to do it. Thank you so much for reading. Really appreciate it! Hopefully one day people can get over it
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Sana.A
Sana, this is a most powerful read, yes regret is difficult indeed and you are right, writing out feelings helps a lot, you did really good work here, both in the theme and narrative, excellence all around, cheers
Hi Christopher
Thank you so much for your kind words. Thdu really mean a lot to me.
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