Rely.

You have no idea
How much I want to,
Need to,
Rely on you.
I want to reach out,
Grasp you and say,
'I'm here. Please,
Help me.'
But what's the point?
I'm scared
That if I rely on you,
You'll leave me.
Leave me crashing to the floor,
Bawling my eyes out.
I am not worth your time.
I'm not worth anything.
When I say,
'Goodbye.'
I mean,
'Please don't leave me.
Just as everyone else has.'
When I say,
'I'm happy.'
I mean,
'I want to cry.
I want to cry myself to sleep'
Did I say,
'I'm fine?'
Sorry, I meant,
'Please. Help me.'
Can I please rely on you?