RIP

If I only had five minutes the day you passed away,
I would have had time to tell you all the things I needed to say.
I never got to tell you how much you mean to me,
Or that you were the best dad, better than any man could be.
I would tell you how proud I am to have ever had a dad like you 
The last time that I talked to you
I wish I would have known.
I would have said I love you,
and kept you on the phone.
You had the best smile the best laugh even your loud fake ones I even miss your loud snoring. You've taught me so much to be strong and strong willed to not take everything so serious to smile to laugh to enjoy the little things because nothing last forever, to treat people the way I would want to. To never keep silent when I feel strongly about something. To make my own decisions and to be independent. You had such a big heart everyone loved you.
If I only had five minutes, 
the morning you passed away,
I'd give you one last hug so tight and see your great big smile.
I'd tell you that I don't think I could live without you,
not even for awhile.
I'd kiss your cheek and take your hand and tell you it's okay to go
And tell you that I'll miss you,
more than you'll ever know.
The day you passed away I felt I lost a part of me
We've grown so close I could tell you anything with no judgments at all  All the memories we've shared I'll forever remember 
You were my first love the first man to ever love me unconditionally through the worst and best days. I know you'll be my guardian angel and protect me.
I now know what you were going through the pain you must have endured the struggles you had faced now your in paradise happy not suffering anymore. 
Every thing I am is because of you and mommy 
I promise I'll make you proud I love you to infinity and beyond.