"RollerCoaster"

Being clean has brought on a lot of emotions
Sometimes to handle them all, I can't fathom
How about being able to control them?
Why does it seem so unclear to me?
Is this natural? The tears that fall
Am I in a depression because of love?
I don't understand where it comes from
The neverending rollercoaster that I ride

Embarking on this journey, head strong
I seem to hit a wall, and I can't move
Trying to break through, it seems impossible
Friends all around can't quite help
They proceed to make me smile, that's about it
But once alone again in the bedroom, lights out
My tears start to pour like the Summer's rain
The neverending rollercoaster that I ride

Each day comes new, I wake up smiling
But it's not for too long, damn these feelings
They've come back to ruin yet another day
Once in my head, there's no return
The worst place for me to be indeed
It is where my addiction rests amd awaits
Wanting me to be in misery, wanting me to suffer
This is the neverending rollercoaster that I ride