SANDCASTLES

It's been 14 years since you left
And all I have done is live in fear
Of what might happen next
Still so many things I probably don't know
But I live in fear that because you're trying to be a part of my life
You might go, so it makes me sad
I built up a wall around me and only open up to my dad
People have their kind encouraging words
But until I find happiness in my own soul
I feel like for now I am captivated by helplessness
And i'm struggling to see my end goal.

Sometimes I like too make my own stories
About my mum in my head
Her building sandcastles with us on the beach
For her to see the smiles upon our face
With the sand between our toes
And the wind blowing through our hair
But those sandcastles will only ever be a thought
And forever be a part of my mind