Speak cloudier

 I just pushed you away I shouldn't of ! Wish we wouldn't of stayed that way. I just wanted your time your attention. You stood me, up again. Its not fair allways starting a fight. It doesn't sound right I guess I want to know that you Care you Speak cloudier the message's, the call's,  Actions do the trick show up unexpectedly just be there and care. Now where both hurting with heart Akes from the years we spent together.
Was it wasted time days, weeks, mouths, go by all the mistakes I've done the betrayal with one.I never meant to destroy us from the inside. We managed to work through all the problems escaped too if you only you new how many times I have  asked myself why do I do this argue with you. Our life being too short not to love not to feel what's real.I just want to hold on to you.