Saying no

I don't know how to say no anymore,
in a world where men take no to mean yes ,

and a scream to be a glorious success,

what is the point in even trying

I'm too afraid to try and say no anymore,

when I look into their eyes the coldness is mixed with a meanacing smile spread upon their face,

too afraid to try to stop them for fear of the violent rage that could be faced

I don't know why I try to say no anymore,

to argue no means no when in their eyes no means please go ahead

where saying no they respond " shhhhh baby relax and enjoy it"

and those words make you feel dead

there is no point in saying no anymore,

when my screams and my tears make them keep going,

when stop means nothing ,

and you try so hard to stop it from showing,

but the river from your eyes keeps on flowing,

and I wonder what's the point

is there a point in saying no anymore,

when there seems like there's no choice,

when your pressured and pushed,

when the men don't hear your voice,

no matter how loud,

it seems as if you barely made a sound

should I try to say no anymore,

when the wounds of my mind and the scars are so deep,

it's as if I'm too hurt to ever break more,

when I think even if I say no he won't listen because they've never listened before

I can not say no anymore,

I am too afraid,

afraid of the outcome if I dare try to say no,

I am so broken that some days the pain is all I am

so no I do not say no anymore,

because even when I try I am not heard,

I am deterred from it,

as they convince me I'm being absurd,

in a world where no does not mean no,

at least,

not anymore