Shallow Waters

Drowning 
in past sorrows 

Head 
barely above waters 

Struggling 
just to survive 

Fearing 
for my life 

Body 
becoming more weak 

Energy 
depleting very quickly 

Why? 
I ask myself 

Viewing 
the light above 

Bright 
like the sun 

But 
it isn’t it 

Rather 
the bathroom light 

Broken 
and very insecure 

Fears 
create false situations 

Imagination
runs with it 

Caged 
Within our heads 

I grasp for my last breath 
as I look down and the reflection of a chrome plug catches my eyes 

I am in control and I do get to decide , as I pull the plug and the water slowly pours out from the drain 

But wait , this isn’t the tub nor am I in the bathroom, quickly I realize I’m in the ocean and it was a piece of jewelry that caught my eye 

I’m totally submerged under the water and the sun is beating down as the rays create lines pointing up like an arm reaching for me , calling my name .... 

I go to kick my feet to swim to the surface, the sand crashes between my toes and consumes my heels as I feel so confused my legs extend up and I stand 

I’m in shallow waters and I realize it’s just another panic attack  as I take a couple deep breaths , my mom calls from the shore “ son are you alright “ I pour out in tears crying uncontrollably 

Yes  mom , I’ll be fine